I'm at the butterfly garden now. My head is hurting.....this morning I felt completely overwhelmed, and packed my bag and was ready to leave. Luckily the lovely girl in charge of the garden persuaded me to stay. There is so much to learn! All the insect names and their life cycles and relating it to Costa Rica and the whole animal kingdom and then on top of that trying to speak Spanish to the local people who work here. So this morning I woke up with no confidence and thought I could never give the tours and never be heard with my stupid quiet voice that cracks all the time. and my ear problem came back with avengence, making it even more hard to speak.
deep breath though......
this is really good experience for me. I could conquer my fear of public speaking if I can pull this off.
and i'm staying at the garden alone at night for the first week. which is quite an experience. massive spiders crawling up the walls right beside my head and crazy insect noises all around me. but this is why i came here.
so i'm trying not to run away and once again face my fears (not the spiders the speaking!).
the day got better though and i listened to lots of tours and tried to take in the information and chatted to the tica girls who work there, and then we all went out for a drink tonight.
so tomorrow i will give my first tour of the garden. unless i run away in the night......which i won't be doing...